NanoWriMo's here, are you ready to do this?!!!

NaNoWriMo is a great reminded for me because i tend to get too much into the details of the matter till the point that all of the day gets all tied up into me thinking about how bad i got it and or realizing that since things are going to go bad for me, that not only am i just a bad, bad, bad person to the bone who is also so very selfish to want to actually write something so massive such as this, but that since bad things are going to come at me from every which way possible anyway; my point being: so why try to do anything for myself then anyway since it will fail regardless? I do a lot of self-sabotaging because i do suffer from depression, but i intend to die off my depression if only one hour at a time so as to be able to start my life over again and anew. One of the ways I like to express myself is through NaNoWrImO is because it helps make me creatively feel like there is actually something to get up for in the morning. After all my mom did say for me to always be working on a project of some kind for the rest of the life because as a kid I can always remember that my mom had always had me active in especially the creative arts and also of course in that of music. So, in having my mom I really would agree then that at oftentimes, (and for me, probably more so than not, sigh), it takes someone or maybe even a symbol of something (whether spiritual, or religious, etc.) or it might even be something else such as a song lyric, or a quote out of video game or manga, to aid in assisting others like myself and me that the time is now, no matter how busy our minds can make us think we are. Sometimes we have to all step back and take a timeout (which I am so frivolously trying to do right now with my life and it is only day 2 of this thing people!) and just forget about what could happen, forget about what did happen before I got to where I am now, and just go with it and then just do the damn thing!